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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

open letter 101







Hi You,


I hope your all well upon reading this note. Hmmm..how do I start ba? I really have no idea pero I'll start anyway. Yuh, I'm pre-occupied with so many stuffs right now. I can't deny the fact that there are people who make me forget all my worries and problems nowadays. Isa ka sa kanila, oo. Kaya lang, your making me feel na dapat din akong magworry sa'yo. ☼ ☼

Believe me, I am. Nagwoworry ako kasi hindi ko alam kung pano ka papasayahin. I believe, ginagawa ko naman lahat to make you feel how important or how special you are to me. I guess, KULANG...


I'm really sorry if I can't do what you are asking me to do kasi sa ngayon, nahihirapan akong ipakita sa lahat na masaya akong anjan kayo. Hindi ko alam kung pano ipakita na walang angat among my list of friends.

LAHAT kayo special, LAHAT kayo importante sa akin. Iba ka, iba siya. Hindi pwedeng magcompare, hindi rin advisable makipagsabayan. Walang competition, walang pressure. Tama..pwedeng mas nakakasama ko si ganito or si ganyan sa ngayon ng mas madalas pero di ibig sabihin nun na wala kang halaga sa kin or nakalimutan na kita. Hindi basis yun para sabihing hindi ka importante.


Napakadami nating pinagsamahan..anjan ka through all my ups and downs and I'm so grateful..really grateful for you. 'Yung mga ganung bagay e hindi basta basta naitatapon. Hindi basta basta binabalewala. Sana maramdaman mo kung gaano ka kahalaga sa akin. Sana...

Haay..ewan ko. Naguguluhan na rin ako lately. Feeling ko, parang nakatali pa rin ang mga kamay at paa ko. Gagalaw ako according to how people want me to. Dapat kung ano lang yung sinabi, un lang ang gagawin. Ang saya, db? I just wish I'm all free. All free to say what I want to say, all free to do what I want to do and ALL FREE to be ME..

Sana kayanin ko pa..feeling tired na eh..just please help me..

please....



All high,


♥ Jaja ♥





► PVI Gift Giving '07


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Para maiba naman despite the busy days of work, we went out for a charity work. We joined the yearly gift giving event of our dearest NGO, PVI. (Pagkakaisa Volunteers Inc.) which caters special children. Itong event na ito ay ginagawa bago para sa Noche Buena. But since may mga sariling pamilya rin kami (volunteers) whereas sine-celebrate din namin with our own family tuwing 24th, kaya 23rd ito ginanap.


Take a look muna sa aming semi-group pic with the super busy, super friendly founder, Tito Oyette San Agustin. There we have Ate LeaLou (president), Ate Jenniluz Lizardo (vice-president), Ate Leslie, Ate Abby, Mama Cath and Ate Ien (secretary).


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Etong picture na 'to, eto 'yung time na nagsisimula na kaming magbalot ng mga goodies na ipapamigay sa mga taong nasa kalsada. "yung mga taong natutulog sa gilid gilid sa kahabaan ng Roxas Blvd, Intramuros at Malate. Each bag contains noodles, rice, canned goods, biscuits, clothes at toys.

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Pandolino's Super delatas

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We're so close to completing the packing activity. After neto, simula na kami sa paglarga at paggala. Lumibot kami sa Manila at naghanap ng mga pamilyang nasa kalsada.

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Now that all the goodies are set, off we go! Pero ciempre, picture picture muna.


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Overwhelming 'yung feeling to see happy faces among the less fortunate families. Try to imagine, natutulog sila tapos gigisingin mo at aabutan ng bag for a mini-Noche Buena feast, tapos babangon sila, pupungas pungas out of antok, yayakapin ung bag at matutulog ulit? Ganun..ganun ung eksena namin sa halos buong madaling araw.


After maubos ng mga goodies, tumuloy kami kina Tito Oyet sa may Makati for breakfast. Dahil mejo madami kaming volunteers ngayon (7 na sasakyan plus isang truck), di namin afford ang libreng lugaw sa Aristocrat. hehehe..so, Tito Oyette and the some of his kitchen staff prepared their very own, "Aristo-back" lugaw.


Late na kami natapos at nakauwi. One thing's for sure, kahit na nakakapagod, it's all worth it. Ang sarap sarap ng feeling at masasabi kong nakatulog akong may ngiti sa labi. In fairness, nakalimutan ko sobra ung mga worries ko nung andun ako. heheheh..


Thank You Lord for these wonderful people whom you have used to be a blessing to others. Now I can say that Christmas really is GIVING. Literal! ahahahah.. ☺




Saturday, December 22, 2007

h0me..



I'm staring out into the night
Trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain


I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
Well I'm going home


The miles are getting longer, it seems
The closer I get to you
I've not always been the best man or friend for you
But your love, remains true
And I don't know why
You always seem to give me another try


So I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old


Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all
And then some you don't want
Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all, yeah.


Oh, well I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
I said these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
I'm going home...


♫ This song by American Idol, Chris Daughtry is one of my recent favorites. Ang sarap ulit-ulitin. I think it's about God. I think he's strayed from his faith and now he's making the decision to go back to Him, "I'm going home to the place where I belong". And "you always seem to give me another try" refers to the forgiving nature of God, no matter how often we mess up, He always gives us another try.


♫ It could also be about being away from someone you love, and finally being able to go back and reunite with the life you had before. It's about the relief you feel when you can finally go back home to what you'll always know. You're happy and proud of the experience and the choice, but you just miss your old life, and the people who love you and/or vice versa.


♫ Nice song! =)


Thursday, December 20, 2007

BANKER, oh BANKER..


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19th of December, birthday ko. Wala ako sa mood lumabas pero dahil hindi kami Ok ng mom ko, gumala na lang ako at nagpretend for the nth time na may pasok ako just to leave a stressful environment sa dapat sana e home sweet home. It's sad kasi feeling ko, I'm so lost lately. Ang hirap hirap. Ambigat sa dibdib.

Good thing, I was able to find a way out. This is unintentional pero I had hoped na this night out would be as relaxing as it could possibly be. It's like, I just want to think things over and I DON'T WANT to talk about my problem/s. Basta, gusto ko lang lumayo sa mundo..'yung malayong malayo at manahimik. Less words, mas masaya.

First stop, sa Araneta Center sa Cubao. I was amazed by the spirit of Christmas which filled the air. Amazing. Ang ganda tignan. Mejo madaming tao, oo. Pero, 'ung ambiance was so right.


I'm happy na sa journey na ito ay nakatagpo ko ang kasama sa katauhan ni "banker." Banker was there to save my night. The whole day kasi was too bad for me though I have my Ate Maple. She was also there to save me, pati si Lebitots and the rest of the gang, alam na alam nila kung anong nagbobother sakin. In the meantime, I just want to FORGET all THOSE. Punung-puno ng pressure.

Ito ang nagsilbing paraiso ko nung gabing iyon


Luckily, for a night, nakalimutan kong lahat 'yun. Sobrang nalibang ako at sumaya. Narealize at naappreciate ko LAHAT ng EFFORT ng mga mahal ko sa buhay para mapasaya ako today, kahit na madami akong iniisip lately. Hindi talaga matatawaran. Iba't ibang tao, iba't ibang ways. Effort kung effort. Sobrang everwhelmed ako.




Bago matapos ung gabi, naramdaman at nasabi ko sa sarili ko,



Happy birthday, Janice!





Monday, December 17, 2007

s0 close

Etong song na to ung nagpabaha ng luha sa cinema house. Grabe, it's so heartfelt at tagos sa buto. This is why it made the movie "Enchanted" not just a feel-good movie but a melodramatic and a romantic one. Listen and feel..



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You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting,
waiting here with you

And now forever I know

All that I wanted
to hold you

So close


So close to reaching that famous happy ending
Almost believing this was not pretending
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come

So far we are
so close


How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy ending
And almost believing this was not pretending
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are

So close

So close

And still so far


* * * * * Funny but it made my heart melt and cried a million tears..




kiNg's swEet gift..


Sweet as he is, King was one of those people who remembered my special day. I met him sa office. One of the new agents we have sa Shutterfly. Hope to work with you for long..



Shine Bright Bear (2006) loves to dress up and always look her very best.

Thanks, King!!!!



Miss you, Bartolome..



If there's one significant person in my life na gusto kong pasalamatan ngayon, it would be JOBART BENEDITO, aka "Bartolome" (ika ko nga at ng mama ko) na simula't simula pa lang e palaging anjan, never ako/kaming iniwan sa kahit anong scenario sa buhay ko.


He is someone I never thought I'd be comfortable with kasi mas lamang ang takot ko sa kanya more than anything else. heheh. Pamatay naman kasi ung tingin niya eh. Sabi nga nila, kung nakakamatay ang tingin, siguradong madami na siyang napatay.


I met Bart nung second college kami. It was way back FEU days and that was early summer of year 2000. I find him cool although tahimik lang at bihira magsalita. Mysterioso ang dating. In fairness, magaling siyang sumayaw at intelligent sobra! Walking wikipedia yan eh. ahaha..We had a lot of momentos. French fries moment, spanish bread moment, flowers, and more..


I never thought we'd be as close as brothers and sisters. No joke. No exaggeration, parang kapatid ko na 'yan si Bart. Andami na din namin na-try alagaan. Fishes and plants. In fairness, nakabuhay naman kami, un nga lang, na-torture nung mga students ko. Dead. Iniyakan ko ung mga pet fishes namin at simula nun, natakot na kong mag-alaga ulit. Takot akong mamatayan ulit. May separation anxiety ako eh.


Eversince our world began (hehehe) never akong pinabayaan nitong aking napakabuting kaibigan. I consider him one of my guy bestfriends kaso nga lang, di ko ma-express kasi natatakot akong my actions would mean different for him. And that's what I'm trying to avoid all these years. He's the ultimate guy na alam kong mamahalin ko bilang BEST among my guy bestfriends and as my brother na rin. In fairness, marami nga ang nag-aakalang magkapatid kami. Lalo na sila ng kapatid ko, magkamuka na raw kami e.


Spoiler din siya at masamang binibiro. He was able to make my birthdays special. May sarili ciang ways. Minsan na niyang ginamit si Arfel (all-time bestfriend niya) para sa kwela - met Arfel twice ata. Nung special flower delivery at nung binigay ni Bart si Papa Bear (which I named "TinyBartow.") - flowers, bouquets, chocolates, etc. There were times din na ni-surprise niya ako with goodies (chuckie, chips, at ung iba pang mga fave ko). Nung may sakit ako, he kept us company. He also used to cook for us. 'Yung pasalubong niyang longganisa at pansit habhab from Lucban. haaay..at marami pa..




Many situations sa buhay ko, UPS and DOWNS, JOYS and TEARS, etc, etc...andun cia. He knows me very well, inside out. As in. Maraming times na sinamahan niya ko sa pagpupuyat.

► Walang tulugan matapos lang ung mga props para sa kamp (OC pa naman ako),
► Walang tulugan sa pagtapos ng mga labahin ko (as in mga damit KO),
► Walang tulugan sa paglilinis ng bahay (lalo na nung naglilipat-bahay kami), * Walang tulugan sa pagpipintura ng walls ng bahay (sobrang na-enjoy ko to!),
► Walang tulugan sa paglilinis ng kwarto ko (in fairness, ilang beses na nyang ni-request na itapon ko na ung mga baubot ko pero ayaw ko!),
► Walang tulugan sa pagbabantay sa panganganak ni blackjack,
► Walang tulugan sa paggawa ng projects ng mga kapatid ko at ng iba pang studs ko
► Walang tulugan kakasoundtrip - sangkatutak ng ni-burn niyang CDs ng mga fave songs ko
► Walang tulugan sa pagssurf sa internet
► at maraming marami pa....


Sobrang patient din sakin yan si Bartolome. He knows when to speak and when to listen kahit wala akong sinasabi. He knows my mood and handles my mood swings well. Maraming text momentos, inartihan blues. Lahat ng drama ko sa buhay alam niya. Anytime na kailangan ko ng tulong, kahit hndi ako magsabi, dumarating siya. Kapag tinotopak ako, wala ciang ginagawa pero anjan lang cia. Di siya umaalis sa tabi ko.


He knows kapag masaya ako, he knows kapag iiyak na ako. He knows kapag kaya ko ang situation or kapag nagtatapang tapangan lang ako. Haaay..hindi ko ma-express how thankful I am. He is perfectly a man any woman would wish for. No doubt about it.








I'm so lucky to have you Bart and again, for the nth time, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything that you've done not only for me but for my family as well. Gaya nga ng sabi ko before, hindi lang notebook ang mapupuno ko sa list ng ipagpapasalamat ko sayo, db? I hope you know how important you are to me although I know I wasn't able to make you feel what I truly feel. I'm s0o0 sorry if I've been SELFISH with what I really feel. I just don't know how to be myself as I know I can't equal what you feel for me. All I know is that I can be a friend / sister / bestfriend to you. You are special to me. Very special. Believe me.


Thank you so much for loving me silently all these years without expecting anything in return. I know that. I felt it. Know that I appreciate everything and I'll always be forever grateful for having blessed with someone like you in my life...


I hope and pray you'd find someone who'll love you exactly the way you should be loved..someone willing to give their heart and soul to you, someone who'll never hurt you, someone who'll never make you cry. I sincerely hope, you’d find someone who’ll be the one that I could never be.


I know I have had hurt you multiple times already but know that I didn't mean it. You have given much, Bart. You deserve to be happy. I completely understand that it's never easy for you to go as I feel the same. But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do.


For me, this is the hardest thing to do especially because we have established the friendship I've been longing for all my life. I just don't wanna lose you and it kills me but I guess, this would help you grow and find your way..basta, andito lang ako..


May the good Lord bless you with a life and love you deserve...


PS:

Hope you had a very

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..




B-day Surprise 104: Ligligan Festival '07



December 15th, 2007. Ligligan Parul or the Giant Lantern festival. I was so0o excited to see it kaya talagang inabangan ko 'to at nagresearch ng konti about it. Curious eh..I remember, the first time na nakita ko ung mga parol e nung time na dinala dito sa Manila 'yung mga nanalong parol. Wala pang "the block" nun sa SM, pure parking space pa. Dun sila dinisplay. Funny kasi talagang naiyak ako when I saw it, sobra!




Last year, nagpunta na rin kami sa Pampanga to see it. Sa Paskuhan Village nakadisplay ung mga parol pero it was not the competition na napanood namin. Exhibition lang. Same thing, I really enjoyed it and felt like a kid again. Mega abang, talon and seriously watched each parol's show. "Do not disturb" ang drama.

This year's festival is really special kasi sinadja namin puntahan un to see te competion mismo. Hindi lang basta dalaw na parang naligaw lang kami sa Pampanga. This is Pipaw's early birthday and Christmas gift for me kasi. Haggard lang kasi super late na kami. Originally, the plan was to leave Manila at around 4pm pero dahil late na rin nakapagstart 'ung aking hair reborn session. Heheheh..almost 7-8pm, we left Manila. Around 9pm nung makadating kami sa Pampanga. Buti na lang hindi traffic.


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ighlights of the event was held at the SM San Fernando Amphitheater. From afar, naririnig ko na 'yung music kaya di ko na napigilan. Mega takbo na kami at talagang nakipagsiksikan kami sa libu-libong tao na nandun para mapanood ung event.





Maraming tao na 'yung pauwi. I felt like the competition's over, waiting for the results na lang ang drama. Pero kahit na, we're eager to move closer to the parols kahit na 'yung tira na lang ang mapanood.

Good thing, sa dami ng tao dun, may mga people na may good heart na nagpasampa samin sa truck. Chance for me to steal great shots of the giant lanterns. Mejo malayo nga lang pero OK lang. Na-feature naman 'yung dami ng tao. Ahahahah..thank goodness kasi feeling ko nasa pedestal kami nung panahong ito. Nabigyan kami ng special privelege kasi para kaming part ng media sa dala naming camera at tripod. ahaha..naka-peke. =)







This year, 8 barangays joined the competition to show-off their craftsmanship, namely: Brgy. Dolores, San Juan, San Nicolas, San Felipe, Telabastagan, Santa Lucia, Sto. Nino, and Del Pilar. It is actually a community effort wherein the entire barangay helped in working with these lanterns, from the concept of the design to the construction and labor. Sabi ni Pipaw, this is not done for the cash prize alone, but for the barangays' pride and honor.

2007 Giant Lantern Festival


Winner: Brgy. Telabastagan Telabastagan garnered an average score of 96.5%







2nd Runner-up: Brgy. San Felipe close to Brgy. Telebastagan's score, 95.7%




3rd Runner-up: Brgy. San Nicholas





After ng in-announce yung winners, tuloy na sa hinintay ng marami, FIREWORKS DISPLAY!
















Bago kami umalis, we took a photo of Brgy. Del Pilar's parol. Proud Pipaw posed sa harap ng malaking parol na ito. Taga-dito siya, Brgy. del Pilar.






According to her, sa lahat ng laban ng barangay nila, laging kasama nito ang Patron ng Barangay. Ito siya:




Later, we went to SM Pampanga for a super late dinner. The closest we've found was Dencio's since andami daming tao. Siksikan to the max. Ito 'yung photo na kinunan habang naglalakad kami papuntang SM. Konti ng tao, no? hehehe..



Ayun, finally, kainan na! =)














Tiring, pero masaya sobra! Heheheh..aliw na aliw ako sa mga parol, aliw na aliw ako sa mga tao. Hehehe..halos lahat sila nagkakapampangan, di ko sila maintindihan. Gang tingin lang ako tsaka kinig kinig. Para akong alien!

Ehem! Tsk..Let me take this opportunity to give credits to Pipaw. Naks. Effort to the max and I'm happy kasi naging sobrang patient ka with me. Hahah..himala un a! Sobrang konti kasi ng pasencia nyan e. In fairness, matagal tagal din ang inantay mo. Thank you kasi hindi ako feeling matanda ngayon. Saya talaga maging bata. Nakakatuwa. Proximity wise, ano dapat distance natin?? ahahahah..peace! Basta, thankyou po..sobra! I appreciate it! From the bouquet, sa jacket, sa customized card, for bringing me here, umm..ano pa ba? Ah..most of all, sa PATIENCE! Blue ang moon huh! heheheh..mwah!



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